Monday, April 9, 2012

Random Confessions

          Well, I suppose it's about time I write another post. I kind of skipped March, so chances are I'll be writing at least two posts this month instead. But what to write? 


          So, I have a journal. I use it to write down anything on my mind. Some pages are very personal, others are just thoughts or song lyrics. So I figure I'm just going to copy one page on here. Not a very personal one, though. It's simply random and perhaps semi-strange confessions. And I will do my best to elaborate and explain each one. You may find some interesting. If not, oh well. I'm writing them down anyways, so deal with it. 



  • I used to loathe orange and yellow. (Seriously. They used to kind of hurt my eyes. I hated those colors with a burning passion, and I'm still not sure why. I can stand them now, but I'm still not very fond of orange.)
  • I used to believe movie theaters used giant VCR's and giant DVD's to play the films. (Nothing more than simple young-child logic. It was the simplest explanation I could come up with.)
  • I'm terrified of giant, automatic overflowing toilets. (I have been since I can remember. I used to have nightmares that I was in a room full of them. To this day, my nightmares usually include some form of an overflowing toilet. Even if it's not automatic or towering above me.)
  • I hate it when people abbreviate "I love you" into "ILY." (A lot of other people do too, I'm sure. If you mean it, spell it the fuck out. And don't misspell it, either.)
  • I now hate being called Samantha instead of Sam. (Used to be the other way around. I used to hate being called Sam, but now if I'm called anything else I kind of shrivel up. Why? I'm not even sure I know.)
  • Pet-names that couples use sicken me. (For example, "baby" or "cutie-pie." Again, call me Sam or I will murder you. 
  • Even though I'm Atheist and strongly believe in coincidence and science, sometimes when I am completely desperate, I'll attempt to pray just in case. (Can't hurt, right?)
  • I hold the biggest goddamn grudges ever. (I may forgive, but I will never forget. And I will always hold some resentment. There is no one I completely trust anymore.)
  • The majority of my crushes names started with a "J." (Simple fact.)
  • I used to believe chap-stick created new lip skin. (Again, young-child logic. Why else would people use it to repair chapped lips, right?)
  • I used to hate pants because it felt like they trapped my legs. (I wore dresses every day up until like third grade. Whenever I wore pants, I felt restricted, like the blood flow in my legs would be cut off. It was like my legs were claustrophobic.) 
  • I once had myself fully convinced I was a mermaid. (A fact I'm not proud of. I had a journal and everything. And I had dreams. And I believed my real name was Ala Aquaex.) 
  • It took me forever to understand the 1st Bank sign. (Have you seen that shit? I couldn't even... Then one day I was like.. Oh. Duh.)
  • To this day, I hold my toothbrush with a bow-hold. (Used to play violin. I now hold my toothbrush the same way I had to hold my bow.)
          So there you have it. Random confessions of a Sam. Thank you for reading, and that is all good folks.